Sunday, March 6, 2011

Dream of Alzheimer's

I dreamed the other day that I had developed Alzheimer's and had nine years left. According to the dream, my memories would gradually disintegrate; all the Masonic ritual that I had spent countless hours committing to memory would vanish.

It was not a particularly disturbing dream, nor is it far-fetched. Dementia hit both my father and his mother, so I imagine that I stand a better-than-half chance of acquiring this disease, and I'm not particularly optimistic that medicine will find a treatment for it anytime soon. However, it struck my father and grandmother in their 70s, and I'm a bit away from that. And while many of my dreams are precognitive, I recognize the predictive qualities only in retrospect.

Still, the dream felt oddly "real." I do know that in the late '70s, I recorded a number of strange dreams that involved me trapped in bizarre, meaningless, and endless patterns. Years later, I recognized those dreams as a prediction of obsessive-compulsive disorder that would flare up soon after the dreams.

The dream might also be a way of indirectly addressing the question that's been occupying me lately, "What is consciousness, what is the self, and where does it reside?" Materialists say that consciousness resides in the brain. Seth had a unique perspective on dementia, senility, and Alzheimer's: He said that this condition is chosen by personalities who prefer to exit physical reality gradually. As aspects of awareness are lost to this reality, those portions of the personality are transferred bit-by-bit to other levels of existence. In my father's case, soon after he lost the ability to speak or communicate in any meaningful way, I had vivid dreams of him speaking clearly and attempting to convey important messages to me. It's reassuring to believe that if this is indeed my fate, "I" will not necessarily disappear, but rather, the world will gradually disappear to me.

5 comments:

  1. Sometimes, I think people should say what's on their mind to other people. If a compliment springs to mind, don't 'wait for the right moment,' try and spit it out before the moment passes.

    In this case, several of your blog posts have been thought-provoking; I've written replies and deleted them before posting. The one right here has been the same. I disagree with most of the Seth ideas, but they've still caused me to pause awhile and think about what you've written.

    Good posts, in other words.

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  2. Feel free to post replies. I also post a lot of entries and then delete them the next day; usually it's negative posts that I delete. Although negative posts get the most hits, going negative is something I try to avoid nowadays.

    Surprisingly, most people that I've run across can't really get into the Seth work either. I disagree with some of the Seth material also. But it's something that, on the whole, has worked for me. The bulk of the material was dictated 40+ years ago and has proven very prescient. Most of the Seth ideas are mainstream in the paranormal nowadays but were very radical at the time.

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  3. I've been reading Seth since 1990 & I do disagree with Seth on some things as well, but I do think he was the real thing & was very intelligent. He's helped me lock into something inside myself I don't think I would've honed in on so much now at age 42 than otherwise. I will B watching 4 daily posts here! I've been eagerly reading up this blog since this morning.

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  4. You worship Satan? :O Please, don't do it. Nothing good can come from it. Satan, Lucifer, doesn't love us and wants to bring us to hell. Jesus is the only one who can help and save.

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  5. Unmm, no, I personally don't worship Satan--or anyone, for that matter. We should be careful of who and what we choose to worship.

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